New KaT-TUN

[iside89]

I didn't use internet for 2 days and when I returned at home and opened my friend page I thought "OMG is the world falling down?! So much posts in less than 48 hours?!"
Guess what happened? Jin's rumors are becoming more than rumors. And fandom is going crazy - TOO MUCH crazy, IMHO. First of all, it isn't ufficial yet, right?! Then, even if it was/is true... Like all of this was unexpected. Girls... c'mon. We knew it since November, at least. Everyone noticed that weird behavior of Jin - even "Cartoon KT" guests. And since I've read all of those posts full of sadness and angst, I want to express myself too... and say my opinion.
Reading all of these posts I realized that some weeks ago I wrote an entry I've never published (I ♥ my memory XD), because I don't like to write angry things so I end up deleting them after a while... but I looked for it in my pc. I wrote it to express my feelings about a Jin's interview the 5th July and I see I was absolutely right. Kame confirmed his words.

Mh right. It's a little bit that I don't speak about music (you didn't miss it, I suppose XD). This because I'm still recovering from my exam session and I'm waiting my NMP LE to arrive - so I'll write the 12000th review XD
I suppose most of KT fans have read the last Jin's interviews. I did it too, even though I wasn't so interested. For me, Jin may do as he pleases, I don't really care so much, KT works very well in 5 people too - and they managed to do it for 2 times already.
But I really was upset by this interview.

Q. You enjoyed it more than in KAT-TUN?
……… Yeah.

Q. Did you get in touch with members?
No, not particularly.

Q. Eh!?!?
It’s not like that! It’s not like that! My cell phone has been disconnected right now. I didn’t even contact my parents.


I don't care if he enjoyed more than in KAT-TUN - I guess most of the fan understood this during this autumn when he was that moody.
But WTF at my eyes this is a kolossal FAIL. That seems a petty excuse. And it seems he's looking down to his comrades. Maybe it's not, but this is what I feel in those dots. C'mon, you're an idol. At least try to mantain the appareances (as you've done up until now)... What do you think that fans will think when they'll see you with KT again (if you'll never return - and if you'll do it I guess will be only because your solo project was a failure)? That you're there just because it's mandatory, maybe. Because Johnny said "Here the one who decides is me and you do what I want", maybe.
God, I'm the first to say they're humans, they're not obliged to love each other - and we know very well how much they quarrelled in the past. So... Jin fans will kill me, but we have seen how in these last weeks KT with 5 members were happy, joking and smiling. And Jin is happy as he is. Are we really missing him so much right now? Let's be happy together: they're happy, I'm happy if they are happy.
But at least let me quote a comment I read in a community... I'm more a KT fan than a Jin fan. I won't be hypocrite saying I'll support him because I won't (and this simply because I don't like the songs he sings in his solo tour). Of course maybe there will be times when I'd say "oh I miss Jin's tone here, or his hips"... but in this way even the other members such as Nakamaru and Ueda will have their spot of light. And they will suprise us. I believe in them.


So, let's think together. Am I a new Cassandra from Troy or everything was under our eyes from ages?
Then, the pre-concert interview. I've seen them friday night/saturday morning very quickly and I tormented my friend (that doesn't know KT at all... I'm so sorry for her XD) all this weekend saying "Kame and Koki were so nervous... I've never seen them in those conditions... And I don't think they were nervous for the concert. And that sentence Kame said..."
In an old interview Kame said that he never lies in interviews, BUT that he may not say everything. It's a smart way to be honest. Because of this, when I heard Kame say "He didn't contact us... is he in Japan?" (with that face, moreover), the first thing I thought was "So Jin's lie about his phone WAS I lie as I thought... and it's impossible they don't know he's in Japan. Kame is saying us something".
Then now this thing (supposely) from Johnny-san. If it's true that Johnny really said that Jin HAS to choose between solo con and KT, and not to use KT as a second choice if he fails, I admire Johnny. I've always though he's a clever (old) man that has at 1st place money. But this will be a strange decision from the point of view of marketing... because I think there are more KAT-TUN fans than Jin fans. Johnny is showing he's coherent and loyal, more than I thought.

The only thing I'd like every KT fan understand is: NOBODY IS AT FAULT. Nor Jin, nor KT-TUN. They have become too much different to continue to work together, that's all.
I don't like to see EVEN NOW all of these fans doing petitions (!!), writing Akame fanfic (sorry, I'm a Kokame/Nakame/KoKaNa fan XD), etc to convince Jin to return. They're happy as they are.
Kame's words were SO WISE AND MATURE I wanted to cry. They can't force him to stay in KT if this brings him sadness. Maybe those 6 boys are suffering too. Don't be the spoiled fans that want what they want. Help them. C'mon, you see it by yourself that KT-TUN are enjoying so much during tours and photoshoots - it was months that they didn't smile so freely. And Jin said it by himself in the interview I copied before. With all these suffering posts and petitions you're debasing the efforts of the 5 boys. It's like you don't like KATTUN but kAttun, "A and his happy friends KTTUN". It's like A is the star and the other 5 are only keeping busy until the return of the King. Please, no. I bet they 5 are suffering too but they're doing their best to not show it and to be professional for OUR sake. Or maybe they're happy. Who knows. Try to imagine how much they're feeling the pressure upon their shoulders; if you are so stubborn, it'd be like they're only filling a gap. But right now they need to see that we're supporting them. They NEED it. As artists, as young boys.
I'm thinking about Kame, which is the youngest but now everyone will look at him to see if he'll be able to cover Jin's absence. Even the other members have always said he's the one who cherish and cares about other members most in the group. I'm thinking about Ueda, who's wonderfully singing all the high notes that Jin would have sing - probably better than him. I'm thinking about Maru who's gaining attention and is showing us his true voice even in group songs and not only in solos. I'm thinking about Koki, that after all wrote a rap in N.M.P. that contains KAT-TUN, and even if in the past he hated KT himself, now can speak about the band with tender voice. I'm thinking about Junno, that in every performance shows us so much joy that you can only think "oh, life is so happy!".
Do you really want to debase their efforts?

And a personal note. Beyond stage life, they're humans. Even though they're going to break up as a group, if they're real friends (.... ok I stop writing bad things about Jin inside these parenthesis) they'll continue to call and meet each other. Jin and KT-TUN have choose 2 different musical and life paths, but even if they're not in the same band anymore, if they really love each other, they'll be friends. Petitions are useless.

What I have to say? Well, you may have understand that I'll support even more KaT-TUN from now on. I bought NMP even for this reason. If you've read my past entries you know how I love 5-boys KT, how I flailed on Fall Down and N.M.P.(song&CD), how I am happy to see them in the last interviews so smiley and happy. You know that I appreciate and I'm moved by their efforts and tenacity that I could cry all my tears.
I seriously HATE with all my might that damned anti-fans that screamed "KAME DIE!" and tried to blind Kame in one of the last concerts because Jin isn't there anymore. Girls, you're seriously ruining this fandom with this senseless attacks to the boys' health. It isn't Kame's or their fault if their paths are different.
I don't appreciate Jin alone as I appreciate them as 5-boys-unit. I liked very much "Bandage" movie thought. I don't like his music style (too much techno-dance-autotuned for my music taste), so as I wrote I won't buy his CDs or whatsoever by him until I see something I really like, as I do with Bandage. But this is my music taste, I'm not going to kill him or the boys just because they're separating. I'm happy that he has fans that like his songs and that he's happy being a solo artist, and I hope he'll achieve what he's pursuing (since he's probably leaving his band for it), but since he's become a solo artist, I'll take him as he is. It's not compulsory to me to like his songs if I don't like them. This doesn't mean that I hate him. I liked him as a KT member, I loved his hips and his voice harmonizing with the others' ones.
It's so much fangirlistic that I feel ashamed to say it out aloud, but probably KAT-TUN changed my life: changed my taste of music unexpectedly, amused me with their weird playfulness, let me know new friends and strengthen some existing friendships, even helped me to calm me down when I was so stressed I'd have hit and hurt someone. I'll support them as a 5-boys unit because I like their music and how they commit themselves to amusing us fan.

Ganbatte!

Comments

[daydreamar.livejournal.com]

Just read a few paragraphs of what you wrote and I think we're kind of with the same opinion